Welcome to my journal. My name is Jilanne and I’m so thrilled that you are here!
I wanted to start this journal as a creative outlet. Somewhere where I can go to write my reflections and musings on how I see the world.
I am turning 40 in less than a month and this time last year I was really looking forward to the next decade of my life. Now that it’s nearly here, not so much.
I’m turning within instead of focusing on external things and I want my next decade to be about slowing down and living on purpose – whatever that looks like for me. I spent the last 10 years striving to achieve ‘success’ whatever that means and feel so disappointed that I didn’t come at all close to where I thought I would be by now. So with this blog I hope to explore those feelings more, as well as actually figure out what I want to do with my life.
My whole life purpose was to travel. And I did that in my 20s. I spent 10 years exploring some of the most amazing locations. And now my life has done a complete 180 and I barely leave home. I work from home, I live out in the bush in rural New Zealand, 30km from the nearest town. I am married with a 5 year old son but we don’t have any other family or friends around us. I only go into town when I have to – to get groceries or run errands.
I’m not sure what I want this next decade to look like. I’m usually so excited to plan and dream in December/January but this year I felt flat. I’ve got nothing that I want to achieve. Sometimes I wish I was one of those Type A, Over-Achievers who is always on the go and always got something going on, but the reality is I am not. I am an introvert who just wants to stay at home.
So stay tuned! Let’s see how this unfolds!